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My name is Meredith, and I am the mother of two awesome boys; the wife of a fantastic husband; the band director for 100 students in grades 5 - 12 in a small community in Maine; and a follower of Christ. This blog is a place for me to reflect on what the Lord is teaching me.
Showing posts with label pride. Show all posts
Showing posts with label pride. Show all posts

Thursday, July 28, 2011

Blogging through the #B90Days: Day 18, Reflections on Gideon (Judges 6:36)

Reading through the Bible 90 Days as part of the Challenge hosted at Mom's Toolbox.

Reading:  Judges 3: 28 - 15: 12

Scripture:  Judges 6: 36 - 40

36 So Gideon said to God, “If You will save Israel by my hand as You have said— 37 look, I shall put a fleece of wool on the threshing floor; if there is dew on the fleece only, and it is dry on all the ground, then I shall know that You will save Israel by my hand, as You have said.” 38 And it was so. When he rose early the next morning and squeezed the fleece together, he wrung the dew out of the fleece, a bowlful of water. 39 Then Gideon said to God, “Do not be angry with me, but let me speak just once more: Let me test, I pray, just once more with the fleece; let it now be dry only on the fleece, but on all the ground let there be dew.” 40 And God did so that night. It was dry on the fleece only, but there was dew on all the ground.

Reflections: 


I cannot fault Gideon.
On paper, and in my head,  I know that God uses the foolish things of the world to confound the wise.
But when the foolish thing He wants to use is you, and the wise that need confounding are a really big army, or dark city that needs hope?

Questions are normal.
Questions are expected.

Now.... Gideon probably should have accepted that God really and truly was intending to use him, the smallest member of the weakest clan in all of Manasseh, after the FIRST test of the fleece...  But God is gracious, and was patient with him.

I adore the story of Gideon, because my husband and I are in the waiting stage.  We are testing every thing that sounds like it could  be the Lord's will, so that we do not make a move outside of His timing.
Gideon's story reassures me that He will not be upset with us being careful to obey HIM, and not acting out of our own ambition, and ascribing it to Him.

And, God's patience with Gideon during the fleece tests just makes my heart sing.
The God who created the World, who could smite the enemies of His chosen people with one thought, chose to reveal Himself to the weakest of them all, and use an unlikely vessel to bring about HIS GLORY.

If I can wrap my head around the God assesses character, it changes the way I see people.

What is He looking for?

1. Usability.
A heart not filled with pride that trusts Him.

2. Humility.
Accurately seeing ourselves compared to His greatness.

3. Obedience.
He needs people that are going to do what He asks, even if it does not make sense.


My most sincere prayer is that we would find all three, in me.


Monday, May 2, 2011

Blogging through the Gospels: Matthew 27

Another powerful day of hearing the Lord speak to me as I "blog through the Gospels" with Amy, from Mom's Toolbox.  If you haven't been doing this along with us, I highly recommend jumping in and joining us.  God NEVER fails to give me exactly what He wants me to hear.  I am changing.  (I hope.)


Reading:  Matthew 27 : 1 - 26


Scripture: Matthew 27: 23


23 “Why? What crime has he committed?” asked Pilate.

But they shouted all the louder, “Crucify him!”


Observation:


Pilate calls them for their unjust behavior because he knew that no crime had been committed.  And like all of us, when we are caught in actions or behavior that we know is wrong, they dug their heels in and cried all the louder,  "CRUCIFY HIM!"

Application:


Help me to heed the rebukes when they are needed, whether they come from you or from the people you put in my path.  Help me to lay down my pride so that when a comment that targets something you want to work on, whether intended by the giver as such, or intended by YOU to pierce my heart, let those comments make their mark and do the work that is needed.

Yesterday was such an example.  Our first Sunday leading children's worship.  As the only music TEACHER in the group, I of course felt that my experience and knowledge should be heeded (revered, even.).   The Lord really worked in my heart, using the words and actions of the other members of the team to remind me exactly what my place is on the TEAM.   It is definitely a work in progress, and I am so far from being like my Savior.

Prayer:


Oh Lord.
I am so far from being like you....
I need humility.  I had a wake up experience yesterday, and the truth of my own heart BROKE my heart.
Help me...  I get very annoyed with certain things, and I have little patience.  Please, Lord....
With all my heart I want to resemble you.  Please forgive me.  Please don't give up on me.
Please help me stay focused on you, even amidst all the distractions of this life.  Please, please help me Lord.

Amen.

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